livingthenightmare

Reading all these messages and comments and, wow. Just to let you know i'm not dead. I also have a new account on dA. You can find me there from now on. http://helloashleeeee.deviantart.com I'm going to keep this account to remember my writings, and i'm also replying to EVERYBODY who's left messages (3,344!!!) to let you know I am still here. What you do with that, is up to you. Ive also read some comments on my deviations, and I in no way endorse people committing suicide, or want people saying they love me because of what I've written. It was 5 years ago and i've done a lot of growing up :)

Yes, mother, I'm so fucking sorry I forgot how horrible your life is. God...you don't know half the shit I live with, so stop complaining. Christ, I hate how you compare yourself to me. I hate how you act like you have so many fucking hardships - but you have none. You don't have anything on your plate. It's always my attitude, or how I can't do anything right, or how I give you lip. Well, guess what? Next year you won't have to fucking deal with that anymore. Wait. If I'm alive then. Yes, if I'm alive then. I've been fucking suicidal lately, mother. Slicing myself to ribbons, overdosing on pills, and burning myself until I go numb and can't

i'm not saying these people who did these things ARE 2face, but i just question them. it's funny because apparently a few people don't bitch to me because they are scared i think it's mean. sometimes it is mean... well, when i think they're UNREASONABLE... but then again, if i put myself in that persons position, then it;s a different story. i just think it's really sad what's going on at the moment. i feel sad like my friend who feels sad about this whole situation but she said it's just bad that no action has been done about it. i feel so guilty. i want to tell, buh i don't want to hurt anybody. because when i put myself in that persons si